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June 27, 2010



To all my watchers that care.

Sun Jun 27, 2010, 11:27 AM
First of all, I would like to say that I am grateful for every single one of you who watch my page, even if you don't talk to me, or comment or favourite or even look at my stuff. You didn't have to to come here and press that +deviantWATCH button. It was a choice you made on your own. And for that I am really, honestly and sincerely thankful.

Now, I know I haven't uploaded anything in a couple of months. It's not that I haven't been drawing, it's just I could never find the time to polish some of them up to show you all. I can say that I believe I have improved significantly from the works which you see in my gallery now.

However, recent events have taken a turn for the worse, and in a nutshell: I'm being isolated, everything I've ever known is being ripped away from me, and I'm being punished for it.

I've came down with an illness. Not your stereotypical kind of illness. Lately I've lost my will to really do anything, even draw. Usually I draw out my feelings until I feel better. But it's like I feel nothing anymore. I've been bed-ridden with this sickness. I can't sleep at night. I haven't eaten in days. I can't stop thinking negative thoughts.

I know I need help, but I don't know what can help me at this point. I want to stay home, but at the same time I want to go far, far away. Everything is changing. I just want peace. I want things to go back to the way they were...

Mostly, I want to completely change myself.

So you can consider this farewell for now. I may be back. Depends on if I regain my will.
I'm going deep into the heart of the mountains of West Virginia next week, surrounded by nothing but nature and silence. Maybe I'll get a grip back on myself then.
But for long, my lovely deviant friends. It's been fun.


  • Mood: Hopeless
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Goldncatnblaksuit007 Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2010
WATERBENDY! i hope its nothin sierous ::(: could u plz tell me what your illness is?
hawktalons Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2010  Student Traditional Artist
I really do hope you feel better. :( :hug:
Baylor-The-Pikachu Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I know how you feel. I've gone through a phase similar to what you've described. It hurts, I know. Depression hurts. You should talk to a professional about this. It may seem lke a silly idea, but if you talk to a therapist after your vacation, you will probably feel better.
If you choose not to, that's fine. We're all here you you if you need us.
kururu847 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010  Student Writer
hope you feel better waterbendy
bloomacnchez Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010  Student General Artist
Aww. :( I'm so sorry... I hope you feel better. We're here if you need to talk, okay?
longvieweccentric Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010
Feel better soon! I hope the script brought you some happiness
DrDoomy Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh dear, I do hope you get to feeling better soon! I hate getting sick XP It makes everything worse. I felt that way when I found out I had RA.
West Virginia you say? You're only going to be an 2 or so hours away from where I live c: It is quite lovely down there :3 I'm sure it'll help~
Scribbler217 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010   Traditional Artist
Aww :'( It's ok we've all been there or will, you'll come to your sences :hug:
wee-donut Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010  Student Filmographer
ahh, that sounds serious, but it's not like we all haven't had a time like that.

hope you feel better dear! come back soon so we can see your improvements.

much love. :heart:
Yubel198 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
feel better soon WaterBendy!
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