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_{Lawl, I've been getting grounded again and again for not getting to the bus stop on time. Even though I still made the bus.}

HOLY MOTHER OF ALL THINGS DIVINE, I'VE BEEN INACTIVE FOR A MONTH. That is so unlike me, it's just...weird! Other than the little bit of pollspam I've given you guys (that you probably all hate me for), of course...and I usually update my journal every couple of days. No art, either. I'M SO SORRY!! *dodges gunshots*

Yeah. The Twitter one just wasn't working for me (in more ways than one). I'm loving the new Easy Install (go give cookies to $Moonbeam13), but I wish it applied to all of the Journal CSS designs. I've been too lazy to update this because of the trouble with coding the CSS and stuff. Which is easy. So you see my procrastinator showing through there.

Well, what can I say? Life is like a roller coaster, as usual. Within the past month I've went from days where I felt like useless crap to the days where I felt like nothing could stop me, and back again. But it's almost summer vacation here (less than a month to go!), and finals are coming up, and I've not only been studying hard, I've been practicing drawing too, and I am ready to take on anything that comes my way!

<sub>My real ego-booster came from a local festival I went to yesterday, where there were all sorts of vendors and such. There was less to do this year, so I walked around aimlessly, and I came across a trio of male artists. One drew caricatures/semi-realism illustrations of people's faces from photos they have sent him and also did oil/acrylic paintings, one who was a photographer, and one who drew in anime style. He even had his own manga that he had drawn on manuscript paper, entitled Clouds Over Hokkaido. It was quite an interesting read. After getting to talk to them, I found out the one who painted and drew semi-realism attended the Art Institute of Pittsburgh and has taught at art colleges across the United States. I let him and manga-guy (the photographer was busy at the moment) take a look through my sketchbook, and he said I had talent! He asked me where I wanted to go to art college at, and I told him the Art Institute of Los Angeles. He handed me my sketchbook, and said "Have fun with it, and you'll do fine."

I may not have gotten critiqued, but to be told I had the potential to do what I wanted from someone who knew what he was doing really made me happy; it was the highlight of my whole day.</sub>

I passed Driver's Education with an 84 on the final written exam and 87 in the class! Now I just have to take the instructor's test and the DMV test this summer! (After my annual trip to my grandparents' of course...but the details of that will come in a later journal!)

I've had thoughts about what to do next art-wise, but I wasn't really sure where to start (maybe I just have temporarily lost my inspiration? ), hence the poll. And I forget which option I voted for so I could see my own poll results (someone ought to do something about that *wink wink nudge nudge*), so Bleach fan art it is! It tied with "Other", but only one person who voted for Other commented saying what they wanted (), so I count that as one vote. Nobody voted for ~sky-rock stock? But you love stock! YOU LOVE IT

Watchers, do you like someone at the moment? It makes you feel all giddy to have a crush on someone, doesn't it?

breathing.tonight you are alone, silence keeping your heart company. you try to breathe but there's no air, there's no air, there's no

one to love you.

you close your eyes and pretend life is a fairytale and the prince just saved the princess and the dragon's been slayed and everything's okay now, everything's okay. and everyone is smiling and happy music is playing in the background and there's only going to be sunny days. everyone is saying, here's your happy ever after, it's all yours now. everyone is happy -

well, except for you, because right now you're pretending you don't exist.

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you compare hearts to fingerprints; no two are alike.

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